The Real Deal

Alrighty then...

I just wrote a post. I published it. It was really sad and depressing. It was full of open ended innuendos. It was crap. I deleted it. I'm here to write the real deal. My wittle feelings, if you will.

-Okay so right now I'm just really SICK and TIRED of liking boys. WHY DO WE LIKE THEM!? 

-I'm tired of people telling me "oh your prince charming is right around the corner." I read a quote on Pinterest the other day that went something like, "People always say the right one will come along; I think mine got hit by a bus." I laughed and laughed..and then I cried a little.

-I'm so tired of being sad on Sunday nights wishing I had my ex boyfriend to sit and cuddle with me while we sit and watch Hoarders and talk in weird accents. Isn't that so terrible to admit!!! I'm admitting it!! I miss him a lot...I'm such a loser!!


-Sad that I feel like he thinks I'm not as worth it, as he imagined me to be before he got to know me.

-I'm tired of holidays where everyone walks hand in hand acting all lovey and crap. I'm like wow, your so special you have a boyfriend, get over it. *written in thick sarcastic I'm actually really jealous text*

-I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough, pretty enough, strong enough, talented enough. Why do we allow such lies to creep into our minds. I'M AWESOME. (wow, I'm so full of myself. I'm not that awesome. Yes, I am. No, I'm not. Yes, no, yes, no, ye...okay I'm done.)

-I'm tired of wanting a boy in my life so I can make a fort with him..wear thick fuzzy socks and an oversized sweatshirt...and tell funny stories together and laugh a lot and have tickle fights. If that's so wrong, I don't want to be right! *Read in high dramatic voice, with conviction, fist in air.


-I believe in love. Yes. Even as pathetic and sad as I am to admit that. That little light still burns within me. Even though I think my man MUST have been hit by a bus...I hope he heals up real soon, and heads my way. I have lots of fun adventures planned for us.

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My Passion

This past year that I've taken off of school to do some soul searching has had so many ups and downs. I've really had an amazing time, made amazing friends, and amazing experiences though really difficult in the end, wouldn't trade for the world. I originally decided to take a few semesters off to decide what I really wanted to major in. I just couldn't settle for the fact that I was just  going to be a school teacher. They aren't anything spectacular. The major isn't respected in the least, and I felt I had more potential than to be such. I originally decided to major in elementary education because growing up I had a very difficult time in school. I had a lot of learning disabilities that teacher's overlooked and weren't helpful with. Many of them just had to teach for the mass' leaving people like me behind. A lot of time's I just thought of myself as being the dumb one. What I didn't realize as Albert Einstein so cleverly stated,

   "  Everybody is a genius. But, if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it’ll spend its whole life believing that it is stupid.” 

If you teach a child in such a way that they are incapable of learning, they will go on believing they cannot accomplish much of anything. Once I realized my inabilities I was able to focus on my abilities. Once I figured out how I learned, I figured out that maybe I could accomplish great things in life because I could learn and apply. That is why I wanted to become a teacher. I want to help those students realize that they can learn, they can understand, and they can accomplish great things. It's taken me this year to remember why I wanted to be "just a teacher." And I really don't believe all the false things I believed before. I know teachers are hard working and very respected people. I want to pay it forward by taking what I experienced and turn it into a way of helping these students. I have so many fun ideas I've been storing away for years. I'm ready to rededicate myself and get back to Idaho this April which I'm SO excited about. 

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Boo Boo

So as you all know I am a nanny to the sweetest baby. I really love him, and I feel like he's part mine. It has been so much fun to watch him grow from the 4 week old baby I started with into the rambunctious 7 month old he is now. I love to make him laugh, and him laughing makes me laugh which makes him laugh, it is so hysterical. I love to take him on walks because it make's him SO happy. I also love just getting out and exploring. I realized how much of a Mom I feel like on Friday whenever another man was walking with his baby and we had a good laugh over how my B.o.b. (awesome 4-wheel drive stroller) was so much better than his because he had an orange one and baby's is navy. After I passed the man, I realized the conversation I had just had. I had a conversation about stroller's. This was one of my first real moments I felt like a mom. Things are getting scary. I started buying higher rise jeans, and some days I don't wear makeup at all. I do love it though. I love how he is so happy to see me, and he knows no better than to just love me even with all my imperfections. My heart has grown a few sizes since becoming his nanny.

FLORIDA

Last month I got to visit the beautiful state of FLORIDA. It was a lot of fun! I went to visit my dearest friends that I met while in Idaho.

The water was so warm and clear! It was a little scary. The fish were nipping at us and I was trying to stay calm until Annalee freaked out it gave me permission to do the same! I loved it though it was definitely a different experience than the beaches at home.

My sweetest friend Annalee!

After getting back from the beach we headed to Annalee's husband's school FIU. We explored and it was actually so much fun. The campus was so beautiful. We discovered these awesome rocking benches that were covered and the entire thing rocked. It was like one giant rocking chair. We loved it!

 

On the way to the Santos' and Russ' home to stay for the wedding, Blake wanted us to drive through the everglades so they could show me some gators! This was right off of the freeway. We were standing on an overpass. We threw whatever we could into the water to get the gators to come up. It was so cool! I think around 6 appeared out of nowhere. I was so excited. 

 

That night we stayed at Blakes parents' home. Annalee and Blake told me we might be able to go air-boating. Bo their brother-in-law is really into air-boating and agreed to take us the next morning. It was so much fun! I was really excited to do this. I got some videos. It was so beautiful and a crazy experience. Blake told me he would catch me a gator, I was really excited and secretly really scared and hoping we wouldn't see one. Well he ended up catching one! I was really afraid of touching it and I thought it was going to bite my hand off but in the end it was okay. Once Blake told me he was going to let go I begged him not too. But I did it!

That afternoon we went to the cutest little restaurant. It was a family friend's apparently and the food was absolutely amazing! I had chicken and waffles. I also tried grits for the first time and it was sooooo good.

Oh I forgot to mention Annalee got to drive the air-boat! Look at that face of rage. (:

                 That night I got to attend my dear friend Brenna's wedding! I lived with her a few years ago. It was one of my best semesters.

This is JARI. My friend forever. Lolo is the girl on the right who is also a friend from school. She lived in the same complex as me and will forever be remembered as my go to dance partner and party girl! I love her!

My favorite couple!!! Love them.

   

Jari and I went to DISNEYWORLD! I loved it! She knew exactly where to go and what to do. She use to work at disneyworld so it was awesome she knew what to do. She gave me the EXPERIENCE. We did all 4 parks in one day. I think I passed out that night but it was absolutely amazing. I love love love my Jari.

 

Overall I had an amazing time. Everyone I stayed with worked so hard to show me a good time. It was amazing to stay with real Floridians who showed me the true Florida experience. I love and miss you all!

Bursting

I am so excited for Fall I am going to BURST!  Seriously. The clothes, the smells, the weather, the food. Mmmmmm. I love it all so much. I haven't been home for two years during the Fall and I'm very excited.

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Tonight

Tonight I'm dreaming. Yes dreaming! Dreaming of a happier tomorrow. A place with lots of fluffy pillows, and chocolate that is zero calories. A place where I know I'm safe. But don't worry I am happy. I read some really amazing talks today that really touched my heart. You should read them. The first was "Come What May and Love It" by Elder Worthlin. Second is "Finding Joy in the Journey" by President Thomas S. Monson.They filled my heart with warmth when I thought nothing could.  Nothing soothes my soul like the The Gospel of Jesus Christ. I'm always amazed at the Angels sent into my life when struggle enters my friends all contact me at once, pouring out their love for me just because. I know that is no coincidence.

Here is a teaser:

I also loved this one by Elder Bednar:

Stay tuned for my blog Florida Edition!

Truth

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