Til' Ya Make It

I am happY! I'm going to tell myself that everyday, until I actually completely believe myself. I'm fakin it, til' I make it. I realized something in church today, that I've been so obsessed about myself and my hardships that they seem worse than they really are and they're plenty of people going through so much more than me. So I'm going to look for a service opportunity each day, and I'll join some section of the service club here at school. I did it last fall where we would go to the nursing home right up the street and have activites and just visit. It was so great to brighten someone's day, and to take the focus off myself. I'm realizing life isn't just about me me me, so I'm going to change. I really am happy though, and I have great roomates. I'm especially grateful for my roomie kylee we understand eachother, and are going through some of the same things. She's become my new workout buddy and we've been working out really hard. I'm determined to get into the best shape I can and just be the healthiest person I can be so I can give life my all.

Today

Today is not a good day. It actually was a great day, but tonight I am feeling so sad. Its so hard to go through things when you're so far away from home, and you know your not alone but you feel like it. I feel completely overwhelmed. I just started school and I have so much homework, I started a new job which is really stressful right now, and a certain special someone and I are no longer together. As I type this all out I realize these are all things that are HUGE blessings in my life, and I know things will get better. I know things happen in our lives for reasons, but its so hard to go through them when they are happening. I'm so blessed though. I do have a great job this semester and I love my classes. It's just everything else that is so hard to get through. I'll just pray a lot and try and remember things will get better. I'm not alone.